Like the Morning's Mist

When you looked at me with tears in your eyes,
a deep, haunting feeling engulfed my existance.
Even in this dream you're leaving me;
will we ever meet again, my beloved?
The sorrow of this dream of a memory is so deep
and the reality of it awakens me with tears;
this life without you can never be justified
just as the pain of this lonely life can never be soothed,
yet when I long to join you,...
Your eyes closed as I touch your face,
and for a moment, my heart forgets to beat.
Am I damned to forever relive this torment?
Your lips quirk a pained smile as I kissed them;
it is the goodbye we were never able to speak
and, somehow, we seemed to be aware of this.
I watched your eyes shed tears of sorrow,*
and while this dream lasts, I want to comfort you.
Let me promise a tomorrow of painlessness,
together and inseperable to the end;
you, who were always the most important to my life,
can I ever console the fears in your heart?
"I am no longer by your side..."
Clinging tightly to the desire to meet again,
I long to forget the words you spoke that night.
As if written in a timeless script in this unforgiving universe,
you called my name in a whisper choked by teas;
I long to hold you in my arms and soothe your pain,
and even though I'm also about to break,
an unspoken awareness forces me to be strong:
after all, I'm afraid to let you go.
If I should hesitate just once within this mindless daze,
then this memory will again be but a dream
and even as I cradle you in my arms,
like the morning mist you'll vanish in my grasp.
Are you watching me from the heavens above,
crying for the long nights I lay alone in suffering?
Do you pray for my sanity like I pray for my fall?
If I remember the day we were parted,
I can recall your heartbeat as it slowed;
though I was not with you when you left me,
somehow it remains a steady metranome in my memory.
Still I long to hear your voice, to see you once more
and though I still want to hold you again,
though I know tomorrow will see my everything become nothing,...
"We can never be together.."